He can't pay child support or anything of my treatment, but he can buy a new car.. Hmm, I find this a bit strange.

Anyway, my eating is such a mess. I binge, puke and starve. It's like I can't decide what to do.

Talked to my psychiatrist yesterday, and I got the impression that she has given up on me. She said that if I don't start to take my medicine, eat normal, stop to cut myself, and drag my fat ass up to school.. theres nothing she can do. She says we have to cooperate, but I try, but I just can't do it.

I haven't been on school this week.. I'm so tired.

Last week did my teachers comment that I looked so fagged and that my skin was getting so pale. One of them told me she could look at me that I'm sick.. not that I'm skinny, cause I'm not, but there was something with my radiation.

I guess I've only taken a break in my recovery.. I need a vacation from it, heh.. Or at least that is what I hope for...

Take care!

-Nemi-

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